New Years Eve Reflections

So this is my first official blog outside of school work. My professor said I have a talent for writing and if its coming from a professor then she must be right. Or she was just being polite. Either way I am writing this blog. I can sit here and write about the usual stuff that people right about, health and fitness, fashion, their fabulous partners, what they ate and how to change left over pot roast into a fabulous 8 course meal with only three ingredients. But nah, I choose to write about my observations, my thoughts and feelings as a single black female. So bare with me if my blog is boring, mediocre or blah, I'm not here to write a Pulitzer.

Anyways, so my NYE's  started quite regular, woke up late and rushed out the door to my ultrasound.  Yes I spent my NYE morning having a long ultrasound. Now for those who have had ultrasounds, it is not fun. having to drink a litre of water and then have a camera pressing over your belly whilst you have a strong desire to pee. I also had the pleasure of having the camera shaped as a wand or to be politically correct a dildo go up my whoo haa. ( Best way to end the year, the only action I received in 2015 at least she put a condom on it. lol ) Anyways enough of my fabulous ultra sound.

Fast foward to the evening, a group of us decided to mark our NYE's like every other person, wearing sky high heels, hair laid, sparkly outfits and ooh wait it was 2015 so a few selfies, snap chats and instagram pics and to top it off a lounge nicely decorated. That's what they call clubs nowadays lounges. But then again we are in our 30s so we carried our flats, ok I carried my flats. Well it wasn't a bad night I must say, if watching millennials twerking, girl on girl action, men trying to hit on every girl in the room,girls crying at the end of the night crying they couldn't get a man to take them home or deciding who to take home bottles being popped, copious amounts of alcohol, fights breaking out, subway shutting down although we were told it was going to run all night and 330 am breakfast at a local diner and struggling to get home at the wee hours of the morning and walking into my apartment wishing I had never left it in the first place.  Pretty much my relived my late teens and early 20s, Ok I lie I did this crap into my late 20s oooh wait  I did it last year too. So yeah some of you might read this and say wow that sounds like a great night, some of you might even say do 30 somethings still do that and some of you were like well its better than sitting home. Whatever reaction you got when you read it was the right one. All I know is that I woke up later and realized that, I am over it. I am over, the partying ,the late nights and struggling to go home. Its not my cup of tea, I realized that 2016, I want the partner, I want intimate gatherings, the dinners, the drinks the simple life, I want to come home on a Friday night and sit on my couch with a glass of wine, takeout food  and watching crappy TV. ( oh wait I already do that, minus the wine and the takeout) Anyways, so 2016 is my action year, this is the year I am taking my health back. ( yeah 2014-2015 its been countless doctor visits, specialist , constant diagnosis of ailments I didn't know existed, that's my next blog) I want to get off my couch and socialize more. I am going to go get the job I deserve with more money. I am finally letting go of anything or anyone that isn't bringing anything into my life. I am going to go after what is mine, whilst praying and believing. Ooh yeah I'm taking hope out of my vocabulary and use the word believe.  So yeah, I'm not going to say I'm going to have all these unattainable, resolutions, but rather, improve upon things I am already doing but do it better. 2015 I was a big ass punk, I was so scared to make certain moves, if there was a guy I liked I was waiting for him to say hey let's hang out. But  its a new era, its ok to ask a guy to hang out or for his number. I had so many friends and co workers give me pep talks and then when the time came I punked out. If I saw jobs I wanted to apply for, but I it asked for something I felt I couldn't do I won't apply. this year as long as its something I can do even not as well I will apply because I would learn how to do it on the job. Nothing will be out of reach for me. No limitations.

So yeah, there is going to be a lot more of me writing. Even if I don't get anyone to read it, that's fine. This blog is going to be my therapy, its going to be me putting my thoughts on paper. It might help someone, it could be the trashy thing people read to pass time, shoo it can be a Pulitzer , but whatever it is I'm going to keep writing well at least until I get bored and fall off the wagon like  most people that go to the gym the first few weeks of the year and don't go back till the following year. But hopefully, no wait no more hope, I believe I am going to continue. Happy New Year Folks wishing you the best 2016 ever.

Love and kisses
A.P.W